I recently learned that a friend texted another friend that a mutual friend was a horrible human being. (The language was just a little bit stronger than that.) Here’s the catch. She texted the horrible human being directly by mistake. And thereby told her to her texting face what she thought of her. (Even though she didn’t actually intend to. And of course, pleaded that she didn’t really mean what the text said. She was just having a bad day.) Whoops. They are no longer friends.
Are you aware of your mind? What are you ruminating on right now? What’s your mood like? How is it affecting you? How is it affecting others?
I’m going to reveal something about myself that I only learned recently, after sitting for a very long time with the above questions. I discovered that I was angry. A lot. And I didn’t know it. Because I thought I was wrong to be angry. So I pretended I wasn’t. I denied it. To myself. To everyone.
This is very complicated and difficult to parse, and to admit. But very important.
When I started to accept that I was angry. And explore it. And sit with it. A very amazing thing happened. I stopped being angry. Granted. That took some work. (Ok, loads of work!) But it has made an incredible, incredible, incredible difference. When anger arises now I work to understand it. I know that it will pass. I do not have to keep it or hide it. If I act on it, it is for a reason. To set a boundary, or to right a wrong.
Acknowledging my anger, working with my anger, has allowed me to stop hurting myself and other people in anger. It has allowed me to forgive the many people and things I was angry about.
And so. To the title of this post, “Don’t Text a Rant.”
Where do you put your anger? Do you yell it out to the world?
I guess that’s today’s contemplation. Do you cause harm when you are angry?
In the next post, I will endeavor to tie these thoughts together with their implications on “Eating is not a Luxury.”